Today i had my menstration. having menstration was not something bad, however, having menstral cramp was the one that really gives me problem. Today the pain was excruciating during bio. my legs were so wobby that i could not walk properly. There are various reason attribute to my bad day, i had computer club today and did until 630. my stomach was rumbling like siao. Nina was famished too. i was tired. psychologically and physically. that project has dragged for a really a long time and truly, i m not satisfied with what we have filmed. however, this is a group work. i understand that it is not time for show of my perfectionism. well, let nature take its course. truly, i m not confident about our piece.

tml my tutor is cmg. stressed. i want to do YOGA! someone please teach me!

I really like the song you guys are listening now. how abt u?

tuesday

I m ultra ultra sleepy today. i dozed off during 1st 2 periods which were chinese. and during chi mock paper, i nearly dozed off. it was terrible! something which i have been feeling irritated for a long time was this: many teachers switch off the front light while using ppt or transparencies that is how things start getting me frustrated. i m in the very first row. if they switch off the lights, meaning it is very dark in front. the 2nd row ppl are much luckier since the light from the back can still shine on them. normally i would not be so irritated with things like this, until the point i know my eyesight is weakening, then i realise what a situation i m in. so my favorite lesson is bio since mrs yip seldomly uses computer. in addition, her teaching is very clear.

what can i do about my eyesight? leave it alone? wont it deteriorate?

hi

i m now using my mom's laptop. well, i m not very happy today, truly not very happy. Today bio lesson was quite ok, at least i recalled some of my knowledge about geo, like soil erosion and flooding. after all, geo is not as bad as i used to think it to be. kinda regret my choice. but if i had chosen core geo, i would probably be in c2 now and face the person everyday. so life is just so ironic, for every choice we make, there will always be pros and cons. Have u ever heard of the phrase "live your life without regrets"? i think it is rather true, because even if we regretted about the choices we made, nothing could be done to change the fact. so why not we just live happily each day? It is always easier to say than to do.

I m in deep trouble now. the trouble is so big that is beyond anyone's imagination.

I m simply not in the mood to study and i feel that my efficiency has somehow decreased. One article can taka me more than 15 mins to finish.what is wrong with me?

Dear Lord Father, please give me light as how to deal with the present situation. I m really feeling helpless. what is right and what is wrong?

when i said today is a bad day for me. i really mean it. like just now, i played my handphone by pressing the pin number and now the sim card is locked! oh my goodness! i tried ways and means to help the situation, but it simply did not work even though my forehead was wet with perspiration. sad. disappointed. MY GOODNESS! i feel like yelling at someone. however, living creatures are not to be yelled at, so poor me can only yell at the bookmarks Aly bought from Thailand. POOR ME.
when you are unlucky, you can be really unlucky, however, when you are lucky, anything can happen to you like stricking 4D. is it part of God's arrangement too?

the first entry

Today me internet is giving me problems again. Sometimes these trivial things in life can really make a person agitated, at least I m one. Today was pretty an unlucky day. I guess everyone in my class should know. I was chided severely by our P.E. teacher in front of the whole class. I can bet that everyone was staring at me. Somehow, a sense of embarrassment haunted me. I felt embarrassed. At first, I was really angry with her for embarrassing me. But later on, my anger subsided and almost forgot about that incident. I guess this was the good part about me, never bears grudges. I was forced to run on the track mill. Honestly, running on track mill was more comfortable than running under the scorching sun, at least the room was air-conditioned, however, the disadvantage about running on track mill was that you cannot stop. I remembered I fell twice while running on the track mill. Dizziness was all I felt at that time. Having not eaten breakfast, I felt my stomach was rumbling, but dunno why I could not feel the gastric pain but fatigue. That was one of the most tortuous moment I had this year. Sometimes, I was wondering why God arranged such a thing in my life, I mean I do not see the significance of it. Once again, I was judging on God’s decision. Well, I somehow believe situation would not be so bad if I had not run the 2 runs of mass run make up. Overall, the distance I had run was more than 4 rounds around the canal. Today, is the day I broke my personal record. And I sincerely hope the record would not be broken in any stage of my future.

During mass run, Miss Ang commented that my body was not proportional, meaning my upper body was very small compared to my lower body. This was rather true. And I was very clear about that too. However, things just held me back from exercising. Another blow I had today was that someone said I was lazy. LAZY! In my life, almost no one said I was lazy except my parents. Even the teachers sometimes praised me of being hardworking. I got a shock in my life when I heard the word “lazy”. Although I was stunned, I also did think through what she had said. Maybe I agree with her to a certain extent. I am not lazy in all areas of life, but not all.

Tidying my room was my main task of tonight. I was wondering if I would get a flu tomorrow since I had breathed in so much dusts. I still remember Aly had a terrible flu after her tiding her room once. Hopefully my immune system is still quite strong after just recovering from a flu, cough and fever.

Today is probably also an unlucky for Laurel. She fell down and there are bruises on her 4 limbs. When she walked, she had to limp a bit, so from there we can infer that her injuries are not light. The worst injury on her would probably be the ones on her left hand. Her wrist was probably fractured (I m not too sure because I forgot to ask about that part). She went home early too. Her mum came to take her home. Kel was commenting that “the mum is so nice. Nicer than Laurel”. Haha .