sigh. i dun like this feeling man. it is so uncertain. What exactly is he thinking? i really wish to have an answer, yet....i m not even too sure of my own feelings. My mind tells me no, yet my heart says YES. how am i going to do? am i going to bump into the wall when i myself knowing very well that this bumping can make my bleed profusely? no no, i cant. i must see the bigger picture.

Lord, i just hope that i can have better control of my own thoughts and feelings. Don let it run wild. Don let me sink too deep, or else no one can save me by then....