Really ineffective. Never really mug. Never really do anything. Juz very slack. While others have already moved ahead of me by so much. I m not comparing. I just feel I m behind. How am I going to do? There is so muich dissatisfaction in my heart. Or rather I would say my heart is filled with discontent, all the things that I hate to say, all the ways that I hate people to treat me. Yeah, when other treat u like a rubbish, how am I going to treat them back? Still treat them as good friends? Yeah, I m the only fool in the world. Maybe I just treat those people too well in the past, yeah, its time to let go. Holding the things that do not belong to you too tightly wont be me any good. Let me learn to let go. Let me learn to not be affected by people. Let me learn to tell God my troubles. Sigh, there are so many things that I need to learn. Can I walk with God in this learning journey? Sigh. There are so many disappointments. How am I going to tackle all these? Humans are so complicated. Or I m too naive? maybe a mask is what i need now....
posted by oliveoil @ 7:28 PM
26 Comments:
keep your spirits up!
and sorry for not replying your smses.. was away at tkd camp. :P
hmm.. learn to let go when you need to bahs. thats really the way to be truly happy, or at least not be constantly tied down by troubles that would do no good.. its hard and tiring to hold on to everything you want.. and don't say you are a fool just cos you treat others well even when you don't receive back the same treatment k? its not like you treat someone well cos you expect something back in return.. the sense of satisfaction in making someone's life for him/her is good enough.. and if you do happen to receive something else from the person in return, thats a bonus to treasure =)) by NEWTON'S 3RD LAW OF MOTION, force of A on B is equal and opposite to the force of B on A! one day you will find someone who treat you to your worth =)) you don't need any mask. just stay true to yourself =))
BTW shawnnie tokkie got 24/30 yesterday. thats higher than zy! O.o he did sing well =)) super cute hehe. your guohao is singing nan yong by kenji next week. don't say i never update you k?! oh oh.. the guy who got out is the one who sang CHU CI ZHI WAI.. even before he sang i told my mum he will out end up really out LOL. i never curse him k?! anyone who sing songs done by weijian before is asking for suicide.. unless you got great talent like shawnnie tokkie! btw its PURE COINCIDENCE his name is shawn k?! =P
ahh tank and lyz rock. schoolwork doesn't. sighh. i only start mugging this week.. day 3 feel like dying le. lol. haiz. phy. phy. phy. sighh. now my chem also super horrible. math.. no need say. LOL.
smilez <3
tell me when you are coming back!
shawnnie tokkie! shawnnie tokkie!
ahhh im listening to tank and lyz 24/7 OMG THEY ARE SUPER GOOD LAH. go go go go go listen =D
tank makes me melt.. ahhh.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
okie. time for phy.
=.=
=((
yucks.
blehs.
ughs.
=X
r u talking abt me? pls answer it here or u can email to me. and btw u also treat me like rubbish.
i dunno u anymore
and
u dunno me anymore
u r really irreasonable to say i m a "hypocrite" when i dun reply ur internet sms fast enough. coz u can't EXPECT everyone to reply ur sms fast! ppl r not always there to wait for ur internet smses...
and pls dun always tink u lag a lot behind.
u always say that...but when it comes to tests..
u always score like 10 marks more than me
watever it is. i feel u shouldn't always think that i m at fault ...coz i seriously think we both are at fault.
u always in sch..abandon me for ur classmates..
and u have a really different ATTITUDE and FACE when in crescent last time and now in NJC
u also a big hypocrite...
during chinese class...
u never failed to blackface me during chinese..
oh wells
KNS YOU
and
KNS ME
FREAK!
HEYYS. theres something wrong with your friendster!! can't leave comments de!! haiz.. we lost our only mode of communication liao.. lols.. don't know when i can hear from you.. >.<
your guohao ah.. im speechless lols. hes cute lah but singing-wise.. err.. =X average lor. his mediocre score was most likely owing to his entertainment value not his vocals. =X and i think he kind of spoilt the song nan yong though his singing was relatively decent (cos the rest were REALLY BAD =\) wilson out le.. expected.. so shuai but i can't stand listening to him =X horrible lahs. worse than renfred LOLS. this year quite bad leh. the 2 cmi guys out le.. most of those left are mediocre lor.. zijie and javin also underperform.. only shawn shines so far i think.. (im not biased!).. its alot worse than season 1.. ahh i miss adriano!! girls also.. blehss.. i only like the vj girl.. so chio!! and her voice is the husky type like xinhuey hehe..
oh yah too bad you are in china.. this week music in the air got CHOONG and XINHUEY hohos =D
i should stop here cos i just remembered whatever i say now you won't see till 2 weeks later HAHA.
oh yes oh yes.. vivo got sushi teh! *hints*
=P =P
shawn's chi pang really nice! hehe.
btw you wanna guess why im up so late? not cos of playing audi k?! cos of CHINESE PROJECT. omg i think its the lamest project of all HAHAHA. i read those words till wanna fall asleep!!
ok im off to audiland! YAY!
yes madam.. your friendster really got something wrong.. i reply and refresh 1000x times also nothing lols.. so don't scold me say i never reply k?! screw friendster lahs.. always got problem de.. >.<
hohos, today's 12th june! which means.. i officially listen to lin yu zhong for 1 month already!! omg =D hehe.. im still obsessed with him and tank.. hehe.. tank's voice also super nice de lor!! go listen to his albums!! its like.. nice dao~~ you sure get addicted! lols! his version of cheng li de yue guang so so so nice.. fei ni mo shu, zhuan shu tian shi, jie tou ba wang, qing tian yu, dong le, wo men xiao shi hou, gei wo ni de ai.. blah blah blah.. all super nice!! SUPER SUPER NICE!! go listen to rynn lim also!! dui diao, kong qiu qian, zhu ti qu.. alot alot, all very nice!! HEEHEEHEE. i can be their manager.. =P both of them super pro at "LIVE" performance lor!! =D and and.. both of them are composers!! =D
hehehehe. im watching tv now. LIN YU ZHONG =D his voice is so so so so nice =P =P
Go fly a kite !!!
Rubbish, rubbish, and rubbish !!!
You need a mirror, not a mask!!!
OEI OEI OEI~!
i wanna complain! you very zhong se qing you sia. and nj uniform so nice meh?! must wear 24 hours ah?! lols
your exams end today right? haiz. after tmr i must still worry about physics spa =(
next week got important event meh? i only remember youth day leh.. oh and a levels chinese oral! what else? don't know lehs~ hmms.. =P
i think i'll be made to drop 1h2.. =( i wanna keep 4h2s de leh. though i don't mind dropping physics. =X
and yes guohao really sings horribly! da cheng xiao ai is not a difficult song.. one of the easiest for leehom's songs le. and one of my favourites! and! HE SPOILT IT!! TOTALLY! :@ :@ :@ hes bad lahs. just go listen on youtube, you will wanna bang your computer or at least your speaker. even renfred better than him.. at least renfred can hold a tune although the tune is erms abit out hahaha. this guy got NO TUNE! NO RHYTHM! NO BEAT! NOTHING! :@ :@ i never hear someone sing so bad before lehs. how did he even get through audition huh. and how can he kick shawn out when he almost failed and shawn got 2nd highest :@ :@ :@ im boycotting this show till they revive my shawnnie tokkie cutie pie back hehe. this show really no standard.. the best 2 guys, javin and shawnnie tokkie cutie pie out le.. watch what?! lols. zijie not bad lahs. but his renditions kinda boring. hope keely wins lor. vjc rocks! but.. her singing.. =X nowhere near teresa's standard. nowhere. lols. i miss zhiyang's singing. so zhai. =P
i realise i say until guohao very bad like that.. but he really is! lols.
ahh yes i miss adriano. last week music in the air featured him =D you never go watch anymore episodes? NEXT WEEK GOT LIN YU ZHONG LEHS. omg yay yay yay yay yay im gonna stone in front of the tv that day hehe.. but its thursday! got guitar that day lehs sometimes get home past 8. omg i mustn't miss the show! LIN YU ZHONG ROCKS! im still EXTREMELY HOOKED to his songs.. in fact i think more than ever. HAHA. GO LISTEN TO HIS XUAN LV AND SHI LIAN XUE!! super super nice.. omg his songs are really so nice nice nice nice nice! and he compose himself de k! go and listen!! i don't like jj and leehom's new songs. ack.
OH JAY'S NEW SINGLE IS VERY NICE HAHAHAHA. my mum says im biased. okie whatever. =P =P hehe. jay's the KING. =D
ok i shall go save my last h2.. though i think it'd be useless. cos its PHYSICS. it'd be a miracle, if i can even attain a 30%. ouch. =(
enjoy your freedom, while it lasts. lols. i think this is the shortest after-exam-freedom we'll enjoy. is there even any?! like, practical spas and orals right after terms? and rushing EoM and WR? and finishing up term 2 tutorials (ok maybe this is just for me hahahaha)? and.. aiyo don't know what else lahs T.T sians. ok we shall be optimistic. yay terms are over! or soon-to-be over anyways. hehe.
enjoy *ahem* youth day next week =D
eh eh! I CAN'T REPLY YOUR FRIENDSTER DE LEHS! it hangs everytime i load your page! why why why! you good lor? suan me when i can't reply! LOLS. anyway my exams ended liao YAY YAY.
but still got spa next week.. T.T
and and.. you get new phone still never reply sms de lehs! though got improve ABIT HAHAH. my friend got a new samsung phone, over 400 bucks! omg. but its so nice. the slim slim type. i prefer SE though. =P
LIN YU ZHONG ROCKS. GO LISTEN LAHS. SO NICE =D HEHEHE HIS FALSETTOS ARE SO SO SO SO SO GOOD
yesterday music in the air got zhiyang lehs. i miss his singing. BUT YUZHONG IS BETTER!! HIS FALSETTOS ARE SIMPLY SO LOVELY TO LISTEN TO!! OMGS!! and his slow songs all damn touching!! ok i know im obsessed i can't help it =P
wahs i hate typing with this keyboard so not used to it lols keep keying the wrong thing. too bad my laptop got no games haha yes my point is i use laptop!! hahaha!! =P
okie sorry im abit too high now =P YUZHONG ROCKS! I LOVE LIN YU ZHONG!
can't wait to see him next week lor! got mlb too!! =D yuzhong yuzhong!
hehe im off to play! GO OUT SOON AH! BYE!!
YUZHONG IS MY LOVE!!! =P
btw, update your blog lehs! mugger! =P =P ac makes me realise how mugger crescent was haha! can just compare lahs. ac is like.. exam everyone still slacking around LOLS. but my class.. =X i think im the 2nd most slack.. the slackest one is this guy who's really just so smart he don't need to study at all.. he played warcraft during o levels everyday and got 6 points.. =X =X i think he had all As except chinese. omgs. T.T
btw, shawn lee is super mugger. yucks. =X
soul's ishi (superband) commited suicide. so shocking. oh my goodness. =X
css's semi is from end july onwards. wildcard round is 2 weeks later, can catch the performance of eliminated contestants. i think their singing really no standard though except for few, lol.
oh my gosh, ishi. still remember how i used to make fun of him and oishi pizza. oh my gosh. =X sighh. life is so unpredictable. must treasure the people around you hor! including your phone! the phone is there to be used! so MUST REPLY SMS LEHS. >.<
poor ishi. =(
i miss oishi pizza =( =( =( i can't believe he's gone just like that. why nowadays entertainment industry so.. =X xu wei lun.. then now ishi.. what if something happen to niunai or derrick one day ah?! i think i just go die with them lah. ok im getting abit too paranoid. haiz. oishi pizza =(
your friendster T.T i cannot load your comments! should go see how active oishi pizza's friendster is now. T.T
playing audi makes me think of dance. dance makes me think of soul. soul makes me think of oishi pizza. T.T
for once a food name no longer makes me feel hungry. LOL. i don't think i could ever eat oishi pizza again =X =( i don't think i even wanna look at it. the thought of it makes me feel sick.
i shall go and sleep. tmr got cip! 10am! means i cannot see shawnnie tokkie cutie pie singing jay's xing qing! watch one time only not enough lehs. but on the other hand, it means i don't have to listen to guohao's *indescribable* rendition of da cheng xiao ai =X he's doing show's xing fu lie ren next round. should be ok lahs. that song is like one of the simplest you can find already. and i think its super cute. go listen! lol, 1 2 3 4 5 6~
then again, thinking of css makes me think of superband, makes me think of soul, makes me think of ishi. hope i don't dream of oishi pizza. =X sighs. btw i heard in soul, alfred is BY FAR the richest.. but just now the news show ishi's house is like.. wah.. and if alfred is much richer than that.. can imagine.. =X not bad ah. you can consider renfred. haha.
oh yes and you should do something to fix your friendster although i don't know what lols. my friend had that problem too. i think she went to log out and log in again. can't remember.
go listen to jay's new single!
something funny happened to shawn lee that day. haha. tell you when we meet up. which i wonder, will we meet up first, or will you read these comments first.. hmm. lol.
youth day coming soon hor..
i think its a wonder how i can't stay up past midnight studying but can play computer till 3am. haha.
yawnz.
oeii woman! go check your friendster! okie now i wonder if you will check this first or you will check friendster first. lol >.<
seriously its 3am and im still wide awake. unbelievable lol.
and just to say, LIN YUZHONG ROCKS. go listen to all his songs!
whee~! hope you've enjoyed both days! you better hor.. hehe.. here's wishing you a very happy birthday in advance! (this is because i don't think i can stay awake till 12 midnight doing boring econs haha) don't fret over anything k? stay happy and keep smiling! LOVES =) must go out more often! just.. not mango! =P lets go papaya or watermelon instead! hehe. salmon is so so so yummy. yum yum. yummmmmm!!
oh yes! jiayou for term 3! ALL THE BEST! you better don't mug till forget me k?! =P and you better go learn that pang*** word properly don't anyhow say HAHA.
FKING DAMN U!!!!!!!!!!
jiayou n all the best for results!!!
YOUR BLOG IS REALLLY STAGNANT!!!!HAHAHA!
jiayou and all the best for promos! :)
I was bored, so I came here! Hahaha...
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