At last my computer somehow worked. Hope this is not temporary. Today we had a history test. Not very optimistic, especially after the trauma of prelim. I have completely lost all my pride and confidence in this subject, so is Chem. After prelim is over for so long, i still have not settled down and updated due to my computer break-down. Anyway much of the emotion then was gone by now. What is left is just traces of disappointment and pessimism. Heard a friend is going to Poly, i was rather shocked as her grades allow her to go to JC. However, after listening to her, i feel Poly might just be the right choice for her as she knows what her ambition is. For me, i dun even know what i want to do or what God wants me to do, so in this case, it is safer to go by the traditional route--- JC.

Mr Lim briefed on us about the practical important points. I was wondering why there was not any such talks on Bio? Again, Bio practical is a huge trauma for me. i barely passed... Maybe i should consult a bio genius---JOANNE! Do we need to study bio pract? and what to study? Sigh. I simply do not have the flair for Bio pract. Chem pract is still the best, as straight forward as ever. But I m afraid of the design experiment question on Chem. I barely understand what Mrs Chia is talking about. I guess i simply need to spend some time on the worksheets given by her. Sigh. Time. Time passes so fast without myself realising what i have done. Like today, Chi Mock Paper which is overdue on Mon drilled all of my energy and time. Until my fingers aching.

Heard one of my OBS mate is no longer attending school. One of the rumours is that she is "biting" books at home. Is this the correct study stretagy? i heard she got 6 points. It seems her method works, at least for her. I used to adopt this kind of stretagy when i was in Lower Sec and indeed it actually helped me. However, now i found each and every day in school is so crucial since the teachers are revising the important points.

After several blows in prelim, i realised i really need to work hard and should not be deceived by what i see but know what the human nature is. Maybe i m just too an idealist, thinking everyone is perfect and everything will take place as what i expected.

Life is full of surprises. Just let God decides my fate.

Honestly, i need to thank someone during this prelim period. She called me everyday at 1030 to see how my days were and how my exams went on. Though we just know each other for less than 3 years and we are not really bosom friends, this act of hers really touched my heart. She taught me what a true Christian friend is --- non hypocritacal, showing care and concerns sincerily and consoling friends when their hearts are crying etc...

Behave like God, he is someone who forgives and never bears grudges. The best proof of the Presence of Holy Spirit is to not just be good, but GODLY good.

Now i m irritated by all those who talked about JCs in front of or behind me. I m simply irritated by those people who kept on saying "i cant make it lah."and "i dunno what JC to go". The problem is that since they so much confused with JCs, they talk about it? they are looking for troubles and it is still early to bother about all these things. If we cant get into the best JC, there will always be other JCs for us to go to. I was so irritated that day that i nearly scream. All thanks to my menses.

I received a friendster message today, and was happy for nothing. It was from a not-so-close friend of mine and he, right now, is in England. Initially i thought she was asking me how i was, to my disappointment, it was just a forward message about friendster. then i took this opportunity to view his profile and realised: he is as "brave" as usual, he took photo with his upper body naked. But the sad thing is that he did not take his whole body, only the head and neck region. I bet Laurel is very disappointed. Never mind. You have your Derrick liao. DUN THINK ABOUT OTHER MEN!

Menses this time was late about a week. Thanks goodness, only a week. It supposed to come at 22th, but it came at 28th. after all, itis better than nothing. Actually having menses is something every woman should be thankful for. I know some women who had menopause at 20 plus. In other words, they could not reproduce. sad, isnt it?