I cried very bitterly in church. even the lady in front turned to look at me. One reason for me to cry so freely is because Win went to HK, so i went church alone. somehow i can shed my feelings freely, hoping no one would notice, but well, my crying sound was too loud. the lady in front gave me a sympathetic look. thank Lord that she did not console me or give me any tissues. or else i would be so malu.

I think there is sth seriously wrong with my character. i mean this ******** thing is still one of my largest shortcomings. i simply could not stand it when i see it which arouse my anger. i m afraid to tell this to anyone because i m afraid this is found difficult to accept by a normal human being except someone with extraordinary tolerance. or even better, this person doesnt treat it as a shortcoming. i receive this piece of news both with shock and gratefulness. how can a person match me so well?

Today something else stirred my emotions. I watched a HK tv drama, it really depict my real life. guilt kinda of overwhelmed me. Sometimes morality still plays a part in my life. can we do things without sparing a thought for others? or i m simply thinking too much or i m just too kind-hearted?

I once heard someone say: if love can be explained by logic, then it is no longer love.
This, is, power of love.