My mood was rather ok today though inevitably a bit disappointed. Agree with what Moggy said, we all have rough periods in our life. In fact, without those tough periods, isn't our life very very boring? So just simply look at the bright side of life. whatever problems i have now would seem very insignificant when i have grown up.

I seriously think i need to do something about my english. I always have the heart, but no action. TV programms are always the one keep me preoccupied. There is no any time nor energy left for studying english. feeling truly very disappointed in myself because i could not exercise self-countrol well. Without self-control, nothing ambitious could be acheived. My dream as a lawyer would soon vanish too.

Have just watched Da Vinci Code yesterday. i dun fully understand the story in the sense that there are so many new terms i need to adapt to and honestly speaking, i dunno my religion well. it is such a shame for a chirsitian to say she does not know her religion well. I think the most fundamental reason would be i started this religion only a few years ago whereas friends youngsters started at a young age. Even some basic bible stories, i have no idea about them. so i m trying hard to pester a church friend to explain the bible stories to me in hope of catching up what i have missed all those years.

Although i started late, i m still very grateful that He had let me know Him, believe in Him and trust in Him. Whatever i have now are all God's grace. talk about grace, i truly feel the grace God gave me. I was reading an article in a magazine today, it was talking about this little gal is turning into stone soon if she could not find a suitable bone marrow. The magazine published her photo. Supposedly she is an Indian, however, she looks like an alien in it. her face is distorted. she simply does not look like a normal kid. Yes, normal kid. Aren't we be blessed to be normal? Parents always wish their children to be genius, however, i simply i have one wish for my children --- to be normal. with a normal health, normal look, normal brain. Lord, i m praying now that this little gal would soon find a suitable bone marrow soon, so that she can continue live in this world.