i went to church this morning. i woke up early and set out early too so that i wont make michelle wait every time. however, the 51 bus seemed to have some bad blood with me. i waited for 20 minutes, then the bus came. sometimes, i was really wondering why was it like that since we, helpless human beings were simply wanting to obey god and going to church? i truly did not understand. i mean i dont understand the significance of letting the bus come so late and then i ended up late for church. i think i was really very embarrassed since i was always late for service. in other peoples' eyes, it was a form of disrespect. being late for once or twice is ok, however, in my case, i almost have never attended service on time before. shouldnt i feel embarrassed or guilty?

During the service, i nearly dozed off while praying to God. The sheer reason is probably due to the lack of sleep last night. Then today the service was a rather short one, it only lasted about 1h and 20 mins. when the speaker announced "dismiss"!. i was quite happy in my heart that it ended so early. it is so sinful! how can i not want to listen to god's words? as for today's sermon, i did not understand much, or rather the speaker's sermon had not much content inside. but there was one thing that installed in my mind, he asked us to have regular meetings with church friends to clear the doubts in our heads, so that we could regain the faith again. But the difficulty is this, we are so busy, where on earth we can dig out the time to meet? Homework is loading. stressed.

But even though how much homework is piling, i m going to watch campus superstar today at 730!!!!! NO MATTER WHAT...............