Today, another turbulent day for me.

The first blow was disappointment. Let me starting telling u with a tv show The Academy. In yesterday's episode, it was saying a group of police trainee ostracise one police trainee, BQ. After watching that episode, i suddenly feel a strong sense of empathy for him. Yes, empathy, not just sympathy. Because what he was facing then is exactly what i m facing now. What a plan by God!

Another blow last night was abt sth said by an EX-friend. Yes, ex-friend. I considered him as a friend the night before, since last night, he did not qualify to be my friend anymore! while writing this, i m still seething with anger! He said i m androgenous(i m not too sure abt the spelling). i was really so angry at that time that i nearly faint! But one thing i m v sure of is what he said was true, the reason is simple, when 2 ppl are quarreling, most of the time they are speaking the truth. i was truly so upset after listening to his nonsense. It must be my terribly short hair! Or it was the way i talk, the way i walk, the way i do my homework? i feel so davastated now! truly. no one was so bad to scold me such things before. i have blocked him, however he still did not want to give up. he even sent me an email to scold me! what kind of man is he? Now i realised sth, when a man starts to quarrel with u, it is the only time when he would show his true colours! Sisters, DUN BE FOOLED BY MEN!

Today i ran with Char in Tiong Bahru Park. it was the first time in my whole life that i ran for 20 mins without stopping! Yes, my personal record was broken today, 30th May 2006! all i need to thank is: Lord Jesus. The battle bw Jesus and Satan is a tough one. so we must give Jesus our full support! I like to see my whole Tshirt, even bra are damp with sweat. it gives me a sense of satisfaction. however i feel my sweat pores are not as good as char's. because she sweat more even though we ran the same distance. One question to ponder: we should set our target by time or distance?

Lord, now i have one urgent prayer request: i just hope our ties would be ok again.