Gastric pain was haunting me today. there was always something wrong with my stomach recently. it must be due to the eating disorder i had nowadays. sigh.

Now i m facing a difficult task. It was testing my patience. Testing how long can i endure the unendurable. how long i can keep it inside my heart and not voice it out. though depressed it made me, i will still tahan through tomorrow.
but as days go by, my confidence level is also dropping. Since monday, the confidence level has already dropped by half. i dunno how much is left now. the thought of it makes me shiver. how horrendous the ending would be! but it might be a relief for her, so why not?